Friday, April 21, 2006

Staying 19 at 23

Is this what they call "childishness" or am sorry is this "Adolescence"?Come August 29 and i grow old by a year.This has been happening to me since 1982.Have completed 23 and running on 24.Have grown tall,have been wearing shoes of size 11,have been wearing branded clothes,bought a new ray ban cooler,have been riding new pulsar 180 cc amazingly,can drive a car with fantastic perfection,have been able to see green grass through 360 degrees,can appreciate aesthetic things frankly and still people say that am 19 or infact am 16 and not 23.

After hearing all this,i went home and locked myself in my room,switched off the lights,put on a rooftop fan and another tabletop fan,kept it at full speed,cleaned my bed,sat on it and started thinking.why?why is this happening to me?why are people telling this to me?and subsequently dozed off.What to do?I can't think deeply about this.If it's so then it's so.I love to stay at 16 or 19 when am 23 and infact i wanna be like this every single time planet earth completes one full revolution around the sun.

Bryan adams says he wants to be "18 TILL I DIE".And i wanna be "16 OR 19 TILL I DIE".

Wanna be young - the rest of my life
Never say no - try anything twice
Til the angels come - and ask me to fly
Gonna be 18 til I die - 18 til I die
Can’t live forever - that’s wishful thinkin’
Who ever said that - must of bin’ drinkin’
Don’t wanna grow up - I don’t see why
I couldn’t care less if time flies by

18 til I die - gonna be 18 til I die
Ya it sure feels good to be alive
Someday I’ll be 18 goin’ on 55! - 18 til I die

Anyway - I just wanna say
Why bother with what happened yesterday
It’s not my style - I live for the minute
If ya wanna stay young - get both feet in it - 18 til I die
A ’lil bit of this - a ’lil bit of that
'lil bit of everything - gotta get on track
It’s not how ya look, it’s what ya feel inside
I don’t care when - I don’t need ta know why
18 til I die - gonna be 18 til I die
Ya it sure feels good to be alive
Someday I’ll be 18 goin’ on 55! - 18 til I die
Ya there’s one thing for sure - I’m sure gonna try

Don’t worry ’bout the future
Forget about the past
Gonna have a ball - ya we’re gonna have a blast
Gonna make it last

The way i behave makes people say that am still 19.Am very lively,always on my feet,brutally frank,when i see a tiger i prefer to call it as a tiger and not a cat(though tiger comes from cat family).Am very happy being like this.Intrepid and fearless in the face of danger.There are no worries in my life.Feeling younger even when my head starts accumulating white hair(there is a school of thought which says that great thinkers have white hairs at an early age.I just have 4.)

Should i change?Should i show signs of senility so that others can call me 23 when am 23?Should i not rebel when i see something causing me displeasure?Should i not argue when i hear illogically speculated thoughts?Should i feign to be somebody else who is 23(chronologically) when actually i want to be myself who is still 19(hormonically)?